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i've received my first pay! whoppeee!! :)

great sense of achievement. :)

this wk's been a crazy wk.

BECAUSE I FINALLY FOUND A JOB LA! yeah!!!

not at a hotel though. it's at a malaysian restaurant selling curries and roti pratas.

curries and roti pratas in sydney?! yes! that's why i'm there. i'm so glad i got in to work at a place that makes me feel rather homely even before i started working there.. (before starting to work there, i used to like to visit to have curries, martabuk and nasi lemak!)

:) that's in the city btw. so it's an hour journey given that i need to take ferry and bus from home. :O

just when i was happily newly employed, i received another call suddenly one day from another restaurant.

i had applied for the latter restaurant earlier than the malaysian one. that time i was told to wait for trial but i never receive response back. so i thought it's gone because when i tried calling back to follow up, i couldn't reach anyone at all for a few days sia! call the interviewer's mobile he NEVER returned my missed calls. i rang up to the restaurant itself, several times either the interviewer aka supervisor is not around and then still never return my call. this kind of ignorance in service is already very annoying.

when i finally reached him after like DAYS, he simply said he will get back to me again. (usually in such cases, most ppl would have said 80% is merely fogging me isn't it?) so i kindaf got discouraged and gave up hoping for it after the phonecall.

then one day, i received call from them suddenly, like more than 10 days AFTER that phonecall, to be told to go for a trial which happened to be one day after my malaysian restaurant's trial.

aahhhhHH!!! 不知道是否应该高兴。

so now i'm juggling between 2 jobs! wohooo!!! i'm so happily keeping myself so so occupied. so so happily!!

however, i guess i'm just only juggling between 2 temporary. i may work a while to try which one i better prefer. because i can tell both manager like me pretty well. (of course~ who am i~ heez....)

but currently, a bit shit. i have classes 4 days a week. i had work another 4 days during the week too. 真是要命。and the supervisor who called me up after i found my first job was pretty non-negotiatable to my available hours. shit him man~ i dont really like him. we almost had an arguement today man...

he was like "look, we hire you because you told us you can work these days. now you're telling me you cant work so many days."

i was almost on the verge of telling him "look, if you cant agree to that, i can always quit. up to you. anyway i already found a job JUST BEFORE you finally decided on me. and i'm a student anyway, my priority is not to stick behind yr bum man... at least i needed some free days to work on my sch work hello~ otherwise, i can jolly well not continue."

@#$@#^&&^**^%$#%

since i'm not their priority in the first place before they finally decided to call me up, i am actually conscious that, sub-consciously they are not my priority as well. i am just starting out to work with them for a while to earn a little more extras to earn back on the pants and shoes i eagerly bought to prepare for work with them (not the malaysian one). cost me quite a bit man! at least cover back the expenses then i'm just waiting to leave them man... make me wait... then work me like i owe them like that.

:P

heez... 我现在不是在摆架子。我只是负气不服他们差点不要我。(i know too that some may say "then why bother crawling back to work with them after you have already found one" but i guess half my mentality is to 'revenge' on them and suck some money out from them for a while first) 也许就是前几个都做不下去，所以才终于轮到我吧～ (well, you could have guessed why they cant last with a supervisor like that, even kylie almost quit but in the end she got transferred to another branch nearer to home.) 一轮到我他们好像挺赚到吧，马上就肯定我，现在还想绑住我排到我一天都不剩。害我next week都不知道怎么去malaysian的那家的呢。

可惜supervisor不太善解人意，休想我忠心于他们呢。:P

but, as i've just started out at the malaysian one, i'm still uncomfortable as to how well i may blend in with them. after all, most of them working there are malaysians. only very little (less than 5) singaporeans and they're working in the kitchen, not waiting on the floor. so... i'm still...

anyway it's just starting only... so far done 1 day with them only, so i should accept that i still cant tell whether i'll fully enjoy working as i'm still in the learning process at this stage. at least the malaysian manager is much nicer, friendlier and more approachable. i like him personally. easy to talk with.

+pay rate! yippee!!! although i suppose both should be the same rate. still, you could have guess which one i'm currently more interested with. just that now i'm still not getting much shift from them so i'm working with the shitter supervisor during the other days.

but i guess most likely, the pay rate wouldn't affect my ultimate choice. i guess i'll still choose to work at a happier place with lower pay than to keep having problems with my shifts working at another even if they pay better. still! everything is still too early to judge. who knows, i may eventually still not be able to fit into the environment that i thought i may be able to easily feel comfortable at? and then even if they pay well or what, i may ended up deciding to stay with the problematic scheduling place because i may not feel that homely after all?

however i dont think i may have a big issue about not being able to blend in well ba...

and and AND u know what u know what?! the malaysian restaurant, 70% of the staff are males! with the front staff who are mostly young guys around my age or so, students ma~ older or younger doesn't really matter. my point is: so many eye-candies whilst working! hahaha... can you imagine how fortunate it's like when working there? like i told cindy: "you cant imagine i couldn't bring the angle of the 2 ends of my lips down during my first day. hahaha! i'm so trying to hold my (flowery) excitement down while working! i had to tilt my lips to one side some of the times to try to hide my wide grin but deep inside me, my heart was already so happily skipping around." hahaha! cindy thought my description is a little over exaggerated.

until just yesterday, cindy told me she saw a guy wearing the shirt with the restaurant logo i'm working at. then she realise what i meant, couldn't agree more too, felt as happy for me and a lil envious that i'm really fortunate to be able to work at that place (with many yandaos as i described). she saw 1 on a random street only she can imagine how it's like with couple more. so can you imagine?! hohoho~ so that's one more reason or so-call opportunity cost to consider even if i were to give up on that job. hahaha! so that malaysian restaurant has double the advantage over the other. :D

the other workplace? mainly indian peoples and a more serious working environment ba... a more individualistic environment ba i should say. however! the location is.... *faintz* on an upper storey... with a balcony area directly facing a beautiful beach. so everytime while i was working, i get to feel like the white waves are accompanying me too. that's a really relaxing feeling. though i've so far been allocated the balcony area which is the furthest from the kitchen, ie most inconvenient section. i dont mind at all! hahahaha.... how contradicting eh? :D

替我高兴吧！

guess i have to start weighing the pros and cons of both places soon and determine the opportunity costs for both until i can no longer cope with 2 at the same time. talking economics here eh~

now i wanna earn many many money and start saving many many money because i wanna save up to go for my cairns trip! 凯恩斯！等我啦！我又要来啦！:)

oh ya! another really exciting thing about those are.... i am entitled to a meal for every shift i do at the asian cuisine restaurant. so whenever i like, i can always take home a meal on the menu with a choice of bottled drink too. well, i can't possibly kill myself drinking soft drinks everyday. so now i'm taking them anyway and stocking them up at home, next time i dont havta buy soft drinks le la... and those takeaways, can sometimes be my next few meals. imagine i'm working almost daily during the later part of the week and the wkends. muahaha~ i haven cooked for a while~ i haven been to the groceries for food for a while~ my food expenses will be saved quite substantially man~ so that's the few good things working there, despite a pretty problematic supervisor.

and then.... at the malaysian one, after lunch shift, kitchen will normally prepare food for staff as well... sometimes they cook food out of the menu and man... though i've only worked once so far, the food they cooked was really delicious! zi char kind of food! yummys! i kindaf miss zi char food whilst here!

even if they dont prepare food, we can also help ourselves to the big pots of different kinds of curries after work. so.... so long as i get to work, my meals will be provided for. although i cant takeaway for this restaurant, but as long as i sometimes can fulfil my cravings for curries and some south-east asian food (teh tarik, chendol, ice kacang, etc), i'm easily contented eh? heeez...

as well as if i go dine in with my friends next time, i can have 20% discount. isn't that really good?! i have been telling eugene i wanna introduce him this restaurant which serves some 'jia xiang cai', until now that i've already successfully applied to work there, i still have not brought him there to eat. now i think that i'll frequently get to eat those food, i doubt there's still much chance i will bring him there to eat. so i'm influencing jeff to come visit me at work one day, by telling him to come try out 'singaporean flavoured' food, then eugene can get to enjoy tgt. hohoho~

hohoho! can you tell i'm so so excited? i'm really happy. because it meant that my attention will no more be on nothing and then always bugging busy friends. i still get to go out and now when i go out, it's for a meaningful purpose because i'm earning something instead of always going out to spend. woopey!

do i look better than round since the last time you saw me? i'm working hard WORKING HARD! :) 你们也加油哦！

一句话：无语。

被人放鸽子。

although i still went to the site, i had no more mood to enjoy the food (alone). just to go and have a look at how it is like and to take photos to show i've still 'been there' but i didn't enjoy.

really pretty dissatisfied that i walked all the way back to where i was suppose to take the ferry back home after that instead of taking bus to the harbour. i didn't even feel like taking bus and going home quickly. afterall i have nothing else but time. :S i just thought walking, walking and non stop walking will probably make me feel better when time passed like that. 超无聊的嘛。

满肚子一股闷气。因为无谓所以没有道理发泄，只能忍气吞声。

一度想干脆回家自己煮晚餐吃就好。一度不想吃了，干脆回到家就睡大觉。反正不开心，睡一觉后或许就好多了。最后。。。还是回家吃了。因为肚子还是饿了。

on a brighter note: makes me save some money then. cos i din get to indulge in those overly-priced, under-portioned food.

depends which perceptive you decided to look it from. of course, xian never likes her life peaceful. :S

发愤图强！化悲愤为力量！要不然就奋力地温书！可是我是读了几天的书了嘛，想找点活动娱乐自己一下，都没有个好伴！

睡觉！

today, or rather, last night, i went to sugarhit at hilton hotel.

wo~
(ok i think the main point might be highlighted on the wrong word for most haha...)

sugarhit is one of the few attractions for Sydney's International Food Festival where several hotels carry out different f&b packages in accordance to the festival. sugarhit serves a course of dessert along with a dessert wine or hennessy cognac. (are they the same things anyway?) of course there's many others such as lunch and dinner courses. but obviously much more costly.

so several girls and i went to enjoy a small little dessert for a set price of $20 and indulge in a little luxury on a sunday night.

more will follow when i get the photos.
but to be mentally prepared: the photos aren't really too nicely taken (sadly) because the lightings in the restaurant is really dim. :S

tmr, or rather, later today, i will be going to explore a night noodle market in another place within the city which is also opened due to the food festival happening throughout the whole of october. food food and more food!!! wohoo!! but overly-priced food i must say. (-_-''')

it's 1.33am now btw so that's why my 'last night', 'today', 'tmr' and 'later' may cause some confusion. :D

after months of finding a job.

我终于找到啦！好开心的。多托kylie的福。

although is not in any hotel which could be better for my resume in the future. but forget it la... at least some income is better than none.

actually what's more exciting is that, next time i have more stuff to keep myself occupied instead of ringing people up and most are always busy at work. i have lesser time to coop in my own world at home too and i hope i will be able to cope more effectively under pressure. lesser time to think of those 有的没的 as well.

oh i'm working as a waitress at a casual dining place btw. no hotel but any other bistro will do la.

today, or rather... last night, i hung out.

this should be nothing fascinating. it's however indeed fascinating because i actually looked forward to the hang-out day. it's been (i consider) long since i last went out of home, apart from going to school.

i actually told my parents that i'll be going out like for why?

in sg, i often had to be demanded to go home.
here, dad is often asking me to go out.

that's the difference between here and home.

i went out. yet this time, i felt more insecured instead when i got to meet The ex-sch Friends. i'm not happy after the latest meet-up. in fact, i felt that perhaps i shouldn't have even asked them out.

why?

because i felt the people here are really the move-on kind of people (as how wanzhen describes these type of people).

throughout most of the dinner, i was almost too quiet. ok, i'm considered quiet enough already. to be quieter, uneasiness started falling in. perhaps they may not feel as sensitive as this girl here. but when i felt weird sitting tgt with the friends that we used to be pretty close and nonsensical tgt before when we were schooling tgt, i find the whole dinner pretty awkward. alright, they may be well entertained with each other but when i had difficulty focusing into the conversations along with them. i know they are conscious that i may look bored.

the jokes they crack, i no longer find it funny to me. the nonsense they say, i find it not nonsense enough. yet i had no ability to make it any better. i have no jokes to share too.

suddenly this reminds me of our most memorable ktv party when we were still in our first year. it was widely declared to be the most fun night by almost all. not many drunks but it was still high enough to feel fun. the night was record-breaking according to me by far. we've had a crazy group with friends altogether from vietnam, china, hongkong, indonesia to singapore. understand the songs sang or not is not the priority then, everyone is just having fun altogether.

today, life's never the same. although everyone were saying how much they missed the fun of that night. i knew that memory could not be repeated anymore. as saying goes: good stuff don't last.

what's more, last night i just caught up with 2 friends tgt with jeff and eugene. or is it too small a group of 5 that it's a little weird to make up a 'market'. i dont think so.

although few others couldn't make it or were simply not interested to have dinner tgt. i knew we've distant anyway. i knew because women has sixth sense. so as to say, my feelings say so.

what makes it worse actually? it was the more bizarre feeling i felt onto jeff. i hadn't felt it that bad towards the 2 other friends whom i hadn't seen every once in a while. i was even more upset it came from a friend whom i use to call close and we still catch each other in the school now.

jeff was one of the 2 male friends xian first made when i first got into the college, along with ray. as a result, very sentimental xian highly regard them 2 as 2 of my most special mate i've known in sydney. it was very gifted that i use to pledge (inside myself) that they shall one day be on my wedding guest list. i will like to invite them to singapore to my wedding if our friendship can still last until then. to the extent until i got married, such an out-of-point idea. but that's how long i wish our friendship could hopefully last. it was really so gifted to xian simply because they had helped me through the early stages of adaptation. so as to say, i have sort of regarded them as my 两大恩人。regardless of what may happen, xian “上刀山下油海” will never forget their kindness. i was never prepared to lose them in any way.

now, i was feeling more and more insecure, esp towards jeff. we used to talk very carefreely. now... i dont feel that like it used to. what's more upsetting is that, he kept ranting these days that he is lacking a gf or someone whom he wants to turn to. 我们怎么了？我就不能聊吗？没女朋友暂时陪我聊不一样了吗？反正我也一样闲着爱说话的嘛。

last time, i used to feel very comfortable hanging out with him. now.... our friendship seems to be on the rocks and i'm pretty afraid. i'm learning to come to terms that we've indeed distant a fair bit, since... almost a year ago. but i'm not yet prepared to learn to forget him when he leaves to go back home in china for good, which will be pretty soon as he is leaving after this year. i just dont know how we can continue to keep in contact after that. he ain't a cyberboy.

well anyway, back to my hang out night. ray was going on to find his other friends after our dinner. i so wanna hang out and not go home 'so early' on a saturday night as well. but...

jeff said he don't hang out till late in china. he always reaches home by midnight.
he said he is already being very 'naughty' here for occasionally hanging out late.

i said i am often pretty 'naughty' in singapore. i always had to be screamed to go home.
i said i can't hang out till late here. i always had to follow to go home by midnight. (because otherwise i get no lift back from the city)

u know?
studies have indicated that laughing heartily for at least 10 minutes daily helps to lose (some) weight. no wonder it's even harder to slim down here.

i had been in my room in my 'own world' for the past 2 weekends. i had been concerned to go out and get a life. i went out but it wasn't the one that could make me happy. instead...

i know perhaps sometimes i expected some things which don't turn out to be what i had expected. i had been told and am learning to not take it too hard. i am learning to keep expectation (inevitable to xian) to its minimum. now i'm just trying to swallow it down. but deep down, i'm genuinely unhappy because i am really bored.

sometimes i find that i derive more pleasure and fun facing my serious and lifeless schoolwork. that's why i decided to work on some online quizzes until such time. couldn't sleep not because of i'm down. i think assignments or having something to do at least makes me feel better? i'm indulging in my own world for knowledge then.

i'm hungry!! shit!

ever since i've expanded quite a bit (in size), i've restricted myself from:
- eating after 8pm.
- buying potota chips and other deadly snacks which i consumed pretty heavily the last term and at very very undesirable times. (eating them ignorantly at 11pm! an instant killer!)

but i'm really hungry now! had an early dinner at burger king so that's why. a regular-sized meal only that's why.

i should have gone to sleep so that the hunger pangs won't be remembered. but i wanted do some homework before sleep. so i reckon i probably wont be sleeping soon.

i went to grab bread le! i really can't take it. i'm gonna cry the next minute if tolerated further!

ok.... munching in the wee hours, once in a while.
i'm so happy now! my stomach is having what it is wanting.

sadly, bread can make you fat. and i'm just having it, with peanut butter some more! omg! i just couldn't stand ill-treating myself until having plain-o-bread.

haiz... i shall close an eye and just survive tonight.

it is suppose to be spring going on to summer soon..

but winter still cant bear to leave. it's october already leh! i've long kept most of my winterwear since i last came back. still....

sometimes it's hot as if it's almost post-spring, yet most of the other times, winter decides to make a turnback. argh! enough of winter! i'm expecting summer now!

News:
The winds have eased but Sydneysiders ought to keep their coats on this weekend, with forecasters predicting cool conditions to continue until early next week.

Gusts of wind up to 90km/h (gasps!) in Sydney yesterday damaged roofs and brought trees down on power lines, keeping emergency crews busy. The State Emergency Service received more than 100 calls for help from Sydneysiders.

Temperatures were expected to peak at 17 degrees today and 19 tomorrow, with showers on both days.

"On Sunday there's a high pressure ridge coming over us bringing fine weather but there's still cool air [and temperatures will peak in the low 20s] ," Mr Webb said.

Sydneysiders keen for warmer weather would have to wait until at least Monday, expected to be fine and 24 degrees, Mr Webb said.

But the pleasant weather could be short-lived again, with the current to-and-fro between spring and wintry conditions likely to continue for a number of weeks.

"October and November are transition months. It's not usually until December that we become more settled into a summer pattern."

(extracted from smh.com.au)


News from Manly: (the area where i live, a little town away from the main city)

Wild weather caused havoc on the peninsula, with gale force winds and rough seas disrupting transport services and forcing the closure of most of Sydney's beaches yesterday.
(wind big until they call it gale! gale = very strong wind. i say, very very very strong wind ah!)

Manly ferry services were also suspended due to the high winds and seas. (high winds and seas oh... high?)


The services would not resume until conditions became calmer, with free shuttle buses to and from Manly and Circular Quay throughout the day.



"The surge against the wharf is making it difficult for the ferries to berth."



Swells reaches two metres and up to three metres, with some surfers taking up the waves.

"This type of weather is not completely abnormal (for this time of year)."



"Of course, (these conditions) are unseasonal for what we normally expect during spring."

Mr Fisher said the forecast is looking good heading into the weekend. "What we're experiencing is a deepening trough over the Tasman, which is what is bringing those cold southerly winds and cloud cover over much of the mid north coast."

"Toward Saturday and Sunday though, (this extreme weather) should ease."

Weather station temperatures reached a chilly 15.2 deg just after 2pm with gusts of 69km/h recorded in the afternoon.

Wind and Wild seas at Mona Vale keep the body boarders Jake Parker from Newport and Adam Bruce from Mona Vale from heading out.

another photo to show how strong the wind was.

Crazy waves and wild weather at Dee Why Pool. (a pool just right beside the vast sea)

Wild wind weather in Manly.

A boat was washed ashore.

yes! that's how severe the wind was yesterday. and very chilly too! i was waiting for the bus to school and standing in the open was quite a torture! i was just letting the wind mess my hair for as much as it likes until i finally got into the vehicle to tidy it again. it was so annoying lo... you have to stand firm as well. otherwise, a person as heavy as me can also lose its balance de man...

it was so new to me. never met this strong wind this strong before. i was so on the verge of wanting to go to the beach to see the waves. it must really be a sight! too bad i din reach the beach in the end. so no live photos. because i was kindaf scared in case of tsunami. heez....

after the dust, now the wind, and the (irritating) rain (with the wind! an umbrella= no umbrella). what's next?

today's community paper's headline:

Summer set to be a scorcher and news on how to start equipping your property well to counterfight the expected bushfire. :O

australia is just too interesting le la! singapore only has hot hot and HOTTER! :D